urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar maybe tomorrow will be better clown 2006-12-13T04:19:26Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:24754 2006-12-13T04:13:43Z 2006-12-13T04:19:26Z there is a child in my heart<br />who is hidden in the dark<br /><br />you opened my heart<br />found her<br />and taught her how to love<br /><br />the girl walks out the door<br />and now she is revealed to the world<br /><br />but everytime you had to leave<br />she discovers loneliness she has never felt before<br /><br />this part of her is hidden<br />not even you can reach it<br />this part that is alone and scared<br /><br />everytime she sees you<br />the loneliness fades a little<br />but it comes right back when you leave<br /><br />she misses the comfort<br />she wishes to be protected<br /><br />but this feeling can only be hidden. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:24462 2004-09-18T19:29:51Z 2004-09-18T19:29:51Z so much hurt<br />so depressing<br />old ladies and gentlemen<br />shiny eyes<br />is this world all about money urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:24066 2004-09-17T05:27:06Z 2004-09-17T05:27:06Z doing things my own way<br />dont care what everyone else thinks<br /><br />people are too blind to see what who they really are<br /><br />sometimes you dont know why you do things<br />you just feel like it<br /><br />saving the kids<br />don't want them to lose their innocence. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:23964 2004-09-16T03:24:43Z 2004-09-16T03:24:43Z Can't wait to die.<br /><br />Dear God,<br /><br />kill me.<br />Like, right now.<br /><br />It's weird how mental shit can effect you physically<br />I was feeling very sick of life and suddenly i felt like throwing up<br /><br />If it were up to me,<br />I'd choose to die right now.<br />But it's not my choice to make.<br /><br />What is important?<br />What is not?<br />I'm losing it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:23770 2004-09-11T17:06:11Z 2004-09-11T17:06:11Z when someone you respect <br />is not the person you thought he was <br /><br />when someone you expect will stand by your side <br />turned his back <br /><br />when you really want to cry <br />and you tell yourself, <br />it's not worth your tears <br />and when you cried <br />without knowing why you did <br /><br />when you tried really hard, <br />but everything turned out like crap <br /><br />when you just don't care anymore <br />but everyone is expecting so much from you <br /><br />when you just wish someone would understand <br />or at least ask about what's going on in your life <br /><br />when people assume they know who you are <br />when they think they know so much about you <br />when they know nothing <br /><br />when the only person you thought sees the world through the same perspective as you <br />disappeared <br /><br />when someone you loved hated you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:23541 2004-09-11T17:05:01Z 2004-09-11T17:05:01Z I piss on them<br />I treat them like shit<br />one by one they walked away<br />I don't need them anyway.<br /><br />don't fuckin' care anymore<br />it's too much<br />it's too much<br />for me to take<br /><br />take me away<br />away from here<br />away to a place far away<br />to a place where no one can find.<br /><br />I'm trapped inside this body<br />the body that won't stop weeping<br />there's a hole in my eyes<br />and it keeps on running<br /><br />do you hear the dolphins cry<br />hear that? crying<br />not fuckin' singing, they're crying.<br />just hoping someone will know that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:23277 2004-09-11T17:04:36Z 2004-09-11T17:04:36Z you want me to be great, you say,<br />but you're holding me back.<br />I feel like I'm locked in a birdcage<br />with no space to spread my wings and nowhere to fly to.<br />how the fuck can i be great if all you do is trap me inside my cage?<br />i don't know how to fly yet, you say.<br />well how the fuck can i learn if you never let me<br />all of your assumptions are pissing me off<br />you want me to be great, you say,<br />but from what i saw lately,<br />you've been dragging me down.<br />how the fuck can I be great<br />if you don't let me to. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:23031 2004-09-11T17:03:53Z 2004-09-11T17:03:53Z Everyday<br />I pretend<br />that everything's alright<br /><br />I look fine<br />confident<br />but inside I'm dying<br /><br />What no one sees<br />there's a hole in my heart<br />it's silently crying for help<br />wishing for an ear to hear urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:22669 2004-09-11T17:03:28Z 2004-09-11T17:03:28Z don't make me face the reality<br />time is slipping away from me<br />I ran and ran but I can't reach it<br />maybe when I'm here time will freeze<br />in this place<br />my comfort zone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:22323 2004-09-11T17:03:15Z 2004-09-11T17:03:15Z please<br />turn off your mouth<br />my ears are hurting<br />please stop talking<br />my brain is hurting<br />let me out of here<br />it's compacted<br />compacted... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:22035 2004-09-11T17:03:03Z 2004-09-11T17:03:03Z When did this happen<br />everyone started worrying about what others think<br />the children...<br />innocent...<br />ignored the stares<br />dance like a child<br />the music is in the air<br />stop thinking...<br />move to the music<br />ignore...<br />ignore...<br />ignore...<br />dance like everyone else is gone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:21515 2004-04-08T17:09:12Z 2004-04-08T17:09:12Z in a manger<br />in the little town of bethlehem<br />a baby was born<br />the shepherds in the fields<br />heard angels singing up on high<br />and the magi came from the east<br />followed the bright start<br />to come to worship the new born king urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:21096 2004-04-06T23:04:15Z 2004-04-06T23:04:15Z let's sing the song<br />sing the song of life<br />it's sad<br />it's happy<br />it's angry<br />it's calm<br />it's dark<br />it's bright<br />let's sing the song of life urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:20948 2004-04-06T02:54:13Z 2004-04-06T23:02:44Z I have came to the realization that:<br /><br />..... Life is a piece of artwork, admire it.<br /><br />..... Life is a game, play it.<br /><br />..... Life is a TV show, watch it.<br /><br />..... Life is a problem, solve it.<br /><br />..... Life is a story, tell it.<br /><br />..... Life is a song, sing it.<br /><br />..... Life is a stage, perform your best.<br /><br />Conclusion: Enjoy life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:20680 2004-04-03T19:54:55Z 2004-04-03T19:54:55Z maybe you have forgotten about me,<br />but I will remember you.<br />I still remember how we met.<br />I remember how when I first saw you,<br />I know I will always remember you.<br />it's funny how things work out.<br />I mean,<br />I never thought I'd be the person I am today. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:20293 2004-04-03T19:51:44Z 2004-04-03T19:51:44Z and I sit here<br />thinking<br />what has become of me<br />I change a little each day<br />everyday I'm a different person urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:20029 2004-04-03T19:46:43Z 2005-03-03T01:12:37Z looking down<br />I'm at the top of the world<br />everyone is tiny<br />I'm at the top of the world<br />I can see you<br />I'm at the top of the world<br />but you can't see me<br />I'm at the top of the world<br />I sing my last song<br />at the top of the world<br />and dance my last dance<br />at the top of the world<br />I take a deep breath<br />at the top of the world<br />and I take the final leap<br />from the top of the world<br /><br />down...<br /><br />down...<br /><br />down... I go.<br /><br />I close my eyes<br />and let gravity draw me towards the ground<br />I wonder,<br />am I doing the right thing?<br />The old memories are coming back to me<br />the laughters, the tears<br />I wonder,<br />is anyone going to miss me?<br />I never meant to hurt anyone<br />I don't want to hurt anyone<br />and i keep on falling<br /><br />down...<br /><br />down...<br /><br />down... I go.<br /><br />good-bye, world.<br />thanks for nothing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:19351 2004-03-30T20:51:45Z 2004-03-30T20:51:45Z stop complaing,<br />you ain't the only person that's going through crap<br /><br />shut the fuck up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:19192 2004-03-30T05:29:27Z 2004-03-30T05:29:27Z when was it that you stopped caring?<br />when was it that loneliness knocked on my door?<br />when was it that my mind started going blank?<br />when was it that i stopped thinking? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:18763 2004-03-30T05:26:52Z 2004-03-30T05:26:52Z the lost soul<br />alone<br />in the dark<br />weeping<br />her heart scarred<br /><br />the lost soul<br />alone<br />in the crowds<br />smiling<br />insides she cries urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:18280 2004-03-27T18:54:13Z 2004-03-27T18:54:13Z I cried.<br /><br />I dont' know why.<br /><br />What I cried for.<br /><br />Maybe for a voice that was never heard.<br /><br />or for the soul that no one understood. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:17941 2004-03-27T00:53:59Z 2004-03-27T00:53:59Z it's friday! it's friday!<br />do a little joy dance urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:17913 2004-03-26T03:40:42Z 2004-03-26T03:40:42Z losing control<br />madness<br /><br />trying to keep my sanity<br />because im thinking that insanity is the key to happiness<br /><br />irony<br />life is full of it<br />and crap too<br />and sometimes life have little puppies<br /><br />Jesus said, "father, forgive them. they don't know what they are doing"<br />He died on the cross.<br />A drop of water fell from the sky.<br />God cried in heaven.<br /><br />Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."<br />but we don't even have that little faith. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:17499 2004-03-25T04:19:50Z 2004-03-25T04:19:50Z yeh,<br /><br />i'm writing again<br /><br />just let me write.<br /><br />sometimes i need that ya know<br /><br />just write.<br /><br />write about crap<br /><br />write about shit<br /><br />write about everything<br /><br />everything that comes to my mind<br /><br />and i don't stop writing<br /><br />or typing actually<br /><br />i just let my hand do the work ya know<br /><br />yeah<br /><br />shits started to happen ever since the shifty-eye girl joined us<br /><br />fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck shit shity shit<br /><br />im in a bad mood again.<br /><br />they always make things so complicated ya know<br /><br />life doesn't have to be that way<br /><br />i mean, it was all so simple before<br /><br />fuck fuck fuckity fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hidden_scar:16873 2004-03-24T03:00:24Z 2004-03-24T03:00:24Z I admire their courage<br /><br />sometimes I wonder<br />is anarchy actually a good thing?<br />no worries?<br />no care?<br />freedom.<br /><br />when i see them people going about freely<br />saying whatever they want<br />and doing tings they want to do<br />I really want to be like 'em.<br /><br />but<br /><br />i wonder about<br />..<br />can't be put into words<br />...<br />religion<br />...<br /><br />I don't want people to get hurt.<br /><br />the truth<br /><br />I'm a chicken.